Season's of my Life = Shadow in the Darkness.

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Tuesday, April 25th, 2006

Time:5:38 pm.


I want this…..damn it’s perty


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Monday, April 17th, 2006

Time:3:48 pm.
Mood: ecstatic.
happy belated rabbit stew day.

i actually HOSTED a family event this year.  and for a holiday that i never celebrate. quite odd that it came to be actually.  and it wasn't MY family that i was hosting, it was my Cuddle Roach's family.  they got to come over, meet my kids, see the house, and such.  it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO not like anything that would ever have taken place with my family.  dad brought over his little bbq'r and we cooked up some tubed meat, kabobs, steaks, and cowboogers.  watched the children run around the doggie poop yard looking for all of their goodies that the men had hidden...crazy places too.  sticker bushes and such.  we got the parental figures up in the living room singing karaoke.  my Roach and i danced....it was so incredibly wonderful. 

but i just wanted to let those of you who've been asking me...i am extremely happy and i am moving him in today.  we've already enrolled the satan's spawn into his new school.   i am happy, i am fullfilled, and i am full of life finally.  i thought many times before that i knew what love was.  i don't have to work on it, because it is just here....i live it i breathe it, i feel it.  i want to marry him....and we just may. 

blessings to all. 
Comments: 5 shades or color me grey.

Friday, March 31st, 2006

Subject:My Baby's Baby
Time:1:56 pm.


he he i think i'm in love...
Comments: 3 shades or color me grey.

Monday, March 27th, 2006

Time:1:03 pm.
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Tuesday, March 21st, 2006

Time:5:20 pm.
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Monday, March 20th, 2006

Time:1:56 pm.
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Monday, March 13th, 2006

Time:6:26 pm.
Comments: 2 shades or color me grey.

Sunday, March 12th, 2006

Subject:why
Time:8:07 pm.
The only thing I am…
Is what I never was.
Allusions are my misfortune
Forgive my past and bless my future

Bring me to the Alter to be
Bring me to your judgement
Alas on bended knee

Treatment as you would
Your unforgiven slave
Rape my will and steal my soul

Pour on to me your sin
Your will…your embrace
I spit on your revenge
Comments: color me grey.

Wednesday, March 8th, 2006

Time:4:53 pm.


As I lay snug in my bed

With pillows tucked under my head

Maiden, bring me joyful dreams

Mother, bring me peace…serene

Mother Crone, watch over me…until the light of dawn I see

As my will…So Mote It Be



Comments: 2 shades or color me grey.

Monday, March 6th, 2006

Time:11:57 am.


I MISSED YOU MISS CLEA!!!  **smooches**
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Tuesday, February 28th, 2006

Subject:Chelana Sioux
Time:12:30 pm.
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Monday, February 13th, 2006

Time:8:27 pm.
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Time:4:44 pm.
pictures from a long time ago
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Subject:ANTI VALENTINE'S DAY
Time:10:43 am.
This is going to be Valentine's Day year 3 that i have been ANTI-VALENTINE'S DAY.

3 years ago - it was a friday or saturday and our weekend with the kids. we decided that we were going to just kick back on the couch and watch movies and have a couple of drinks. just an easy cozy romantic day with the children. it started out well enough. he ACTUALLY BOUGHT ME A STUFFED ANIMAL. for anyone that knew him, that was BIG TIME. especially since it was an over commercialized holiday. he and patrick brough it in to me. it was a little stuffed dog with an I LOVE YOU heart between his little paws. i was estatic!!!! i was in the middle of cleaning the bedroom...that's all i can remember about the day itself.

then 7 PMish came along. HE WAS PASSED OUT DRUNK ON THE LIVING ROOM FLOOR INBETWEEN THE ENTERTAINMENT CENTER AND THE COFFEE TABLE. the kids thought he was playing...then they came in yelling to me that they thought he was DEAD! chelana had tripped over him and he didn't move....


the love of being "LOADED" and booze out weighed any love that we had for each other. the love of my life started the day showing me that he loved me....and ended the day by showing me what he loved more. his liquor....

i have been ANTI VALENTINE'S DAY for 3 years now. all the boys around me keep saying they are going to get me this, or want to take me here..and i say NO!!! my buddy (and non drinking friend) timmy understands. we are just going to kick back and share an ANTI VALENTINE'S DAY. eat junk food and watch horror flicks. he's gonna pick up SAW2. and we are calling it the ANTI-DAY.

funny how that one extra drink can change so much...that was the night i decided to leave him. it was a hard decision too. i had wanted him for sooooo many many many years (12) and it fell to crap....
Comments: 1 shade or color me grey.

Wednesday, February 1st, 2006

Time:11:17 am.

 

Comments: 1 shade or color me grey.

Monday, January 30th, 2006

Time:10:33 am.
Mood: exhausted.

 

Paintings and drawing from this weekend...and one from the pastCollapse )

Comments: 5 shades or color me grey.

Thursday, January 26th, 2006

Time:5:15 pm.
Comments: 2 shades or color me grey.

Tuesday, January 24th, 2006

Time:3:54 pm.
Comments: 5 shades or color me grey.

Friday, January 20th, 2006

Time:6:07 pm.
Comments: color me grey.

Tuesday, January 10th, 2006

Time:1:36 pm.

Echo
by Trapt

 

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why

I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
(Close my eyes)
(Let the whole thing pass me by)
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
(Asking why)

I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why ( asking why )

I'll run away with you, by my side (by my side)
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
(Asking why)

Do I expect to change
The past I hold inside?
With all the words I say
Repeating over in my mind
Some things you can't erase
No matter how hard you try
An exit to escape
Is all there is left to find

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why (asking why)


I'll run away with you, by my side (by my side)
I'll run away with you, by my side
(There is no time)
(Let the whole thing pass me by)
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

I know I always loved you
I know I always loved you
I know I always loved you

So I close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why

I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
(There is no time)
(Let the whole thing pass me by)
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

 

Comments: color me grey.

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