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Friday, September 28th, 2012

Subject:why ask what you already know
Time:4:58 pm.
i'm not even sure why i am putting this is into some type of black and white.

we've been together for 4 1/2 years. when i met him, he had had his tattoo shop for FOUR days. i helped support the shop in it's 3 years of existence financially. anything from paying the rent, to the phone and internet, to even putting in $800 for signage. the shop failed. he employed his friends and was too much of a pussy to supervise them. so, the did what they wanted to do...and so did he. inevidabley, the shop failed. it's not like he could pay bills with the money that he could make there. every penny that he made from that place went back into it. i was lucky to get $30 here or $100 there for the household expenses. then he wondered why i was "SO UPSET" when i didn't have the funds for the heat, the mortgage, the phone (in which i had added him to my plan with the expectation that he would pay his share). months went by. month after month in which i had to earn my money and ONLY my money to pay for the household expenses...in which he had been a resident in for years...

and now there is now. he has had a couple of jobs. here and there. he can't hold a job. he quit the the last one because they switched him from hourly to piece work. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. i dunno when he will get it thru his head that some money is better than no money. he says he has some type of work ethic but it has taken until now to see that he has none. he doesn't want to work. he wants to make excuses for everything.
Comments: color me grey.

Monday, June 28th, 2010

Subject:lost
Time:6:32 pm.
need i say nore
Comments: color me grey.

Monday, May 4th, 2009

Time:8:11 pm.
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Comments: 1 shade or color me grey.

Friday, January 16th, 2009

Time:2:36 pm.
Comments: color me grey.

Saturday, June 14th, 2008

Time:2:41 pm.
Comments: color me grey.

Wednesday, January 3rd, 2007

Time:12:07 pm.

Comments: 2 shades or color me grey.

Wednesday, July 26th, 2006

Time:5:28 pm.

i know it's not fuckin 98 degrees anymore...but it's still freakin hot!  and someone please tell me

WHY THE HELL DID I WEAR JEANS TO WORK TODAY???

my smoke breaks are killing me....

Comments: 4 shades or color me grey.

Friday, June 30th, 2006

Time:4:00 pm.

 

 

I'm just venting so nobody freak out on me...

i'm stressed out just about beyond my limits.

i'm freaking out over money. i didn't realize that an additional two more people would be such a burden on my financial well being.  twice as much food, twice as many cigarettes, and then the beer consumption.  i've had my water shut off twice in the past 3 months. i have had to take out a payday loan every payday for the past 3 or 4 paydays, just to get by.  i need to sit down, evaluate my bills, and give myself a budget. it's just a matter of doing it.

the living space is becoming to seem more cramped, although it's mainly just clothes everywhere, since there wasn't a whole lot more brought into the house. but the upkeep on the house is taking a major toll on me.  coming home when it was just me and pat (and ray), cooking dinner and doing the dishes every night seemed so easy.  but for some reason they just stack up and don't get done nearly as often.  more stuff laying around-more everything.  just seems allot more cluttered.  and for some reason over the past few months i have allowed it to get this way.  (*SMACK!*) 

i know that i don't have a physically demanding job, but the emotional and mental stress far more outways anything physical i could be doing.  i come home and all i want to do is chill out with my baby on the couch and vegitate my brain cells.  i don't want to think about ANYTHING that has to do with real life.  i call it my *WOOSH* time. just let everything during the day seep out of me. 

i've been seriously contemplating getting a second job. just waitressing a couple hours a couple nights a week.  that way i will always be busy and not think about the shit that is constantly running through my head.  and i would have a little extra $$ to help get through the month.  i need to come home and not *WOOSH* anymore and just take care of business.  i know this.  my expections of household anything has gone so far below my usual standards, so i need to just do things myself i think.  not expect anything from anyone. not ask anything of anyone. just do it myself.  i will be tired initially i know, but i know that i will eventually get over it. 

i need to quit being such a loser slug and get off of my ass and do shit. 
i need to make a TO DO list for myself and post them around the house like my dad used to do to me, so i remind myself that i can't be lazy all the time at home.  i am just feeling like such trailer trash that it isn't funny.  i need to get back to me, and get my house back to my standards.  otherwise i am going to end up on medications again.

i need to start meditating again a couple times a week and start practicing.  i know that when i practice, my energy levels are high and i feel great.  i have been letting it go down hill for some time now, and need to kick my ass back into gear.

i guess what i am trying to say is that i need to get back to me.  i need to start finding happiness in myself and not look outward to other people to fulfill that need.

But on a lighter note...pictures of Patrick's depature to North Carolina and Griffen's new hair do!!

  and this was just a funny Oxymoron to me! 

Comments: 4 shades or color me grey.

Subject:Help Anyone?
Time:11:00 am.
I am in need of your help.
Last week my husband did a system restore on our computer at home. We lost a little information, but that is okay.
My problem is the Microsoft Student Office.

The software stayed on the computer, but it is wanting me to re-register it. The computer and the software were my son's 12th birthday present from his dad last year (dad lives in NC).
His dad wanted the software back after we loaded it (and registered the software with Microsoft).

Patrick, my son, is in NC with his dad right now as we speak, but his dad won't give him the registration number for the software to send to me!!! I have a shitload of work i need to do from home this weekend, but i can't if i don't have Excel!

does anyone have a registration .. for the software they can share with me?????? Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease! This is no bullshit, i am in diar straights right now and flippin out that i won't get this assignment done, and i dont' want to lose my job!

HELP ANYONE?????
Comments: 3 shades or color me grey.

Monday, June 19th, 2006

Subject:Fremont Solstice Parade
Time:1:35 pm.
My husband and I on our way to the fremont solstice parade on saturday.  
Echox in her full Ceremonial Pagan Garb

Comments: color me grey.

Wednesday, June 7th, 2006

Time:1:38 pm.








Comments: 25 shades or color me grey.

Tuesday, June 6th, 2006

Time:10:29 am.
TODAY IS THE DAY

LOVE YOU ALL! 

PICTURES LATER....

my hubby after his haircut


me and mine (clean shavin, eh)



and me in love...


Comments: 2 shades or color me grey.

Monday, June 5th, 2006

Subject:6/6/06 Ceremony...
Time:12:18 pm.
Mood: nervous.
My nerves are about shot.  
I'm having doubts.
But I am still in love...

Comments: 4 shades or color me grey.

Friday, June 2nd, 2006

Time:3:13 pm.
Comments: 1 shade or color me grey.

Wednesday, May 24th, 2006

Subject:HELP!
Time:12:32 pm.

Does anyone know where i can get an IP tracker?????

I am being so fuckin cyber stalked on Myspace, and i need to get her IP address to get all these fucked up profiles of me on Alt.com and Adultfriendfinders.com shut down and get her fuckin ass busted!!!

Comments: 3 shades or color me grey.

Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006

Time:10:30 am.

The Lunatics Have Taken Over The Asylum

i see a clinic full of cynics
who want to twist the peoples' wrist
they're watching every move we make
we're all included on the list

the lunatics have taken over the asylum
the lunatics have taken over the asylum

no nuclear the cowboy told us
and who am i to disagree
'cos when the madman flips the switch
the nuclear will go for me

the lunatics have taken over the asylum
the lunatics have taken over the asylum

i've seen the faces of starvation
but i just can not see the points
'cos there's so much food here today
that no one wants to take away

the lunatics have taken over the asylum
the lunatics have taken over the asylum

the lunatics have taken over the asylum - take away my right to choose
the lunatics have taken over the asylum - take away my point of view
the lunatics have taken over the asylum
the lunatics have taken over the asylum - take away my dignity, take these things away from me
the lunatics have taken over the asylum
the lunatics have taken over the asylum - take away my family, take awaythe right to speak
the lunatics have taken over the asylum take away my point of view, takeaway my right to choose
Comments: 1 shade or color me grey.

Friday, May 12th, 2006

Time:11:39 pm.

FUCK YOU PUSSY...

YOU AIN'T SHIT BITCH.....

Comments: 1 shade or color me grey.

Thursday, May 11th, 2006

Subject:Marriage Vows
Time:12:04 pm.
Mood: amused.
The Wedding Vows Joey Wants to Use!!!!  LMAO!


This is my wife.
There are many like it, but this one is mine.
My wife is my best friend.
she is my life.
I must master her as I must master my life.
My wife, without me, is useless.
Without my wife, I am useless.
I must fuck my wife true.
I must fuck better than my wife,
who is trying to fuck me.
I must fuck her before she fucks me.
I will.

My wife and myself know that what counts in love and war,
is not the orgasm during sex,
the noise when we bust,
nor the smoke we have after.
We know it is the love that counts.
We will love.

My wife is eternal, even as I, because it is my life.
Thus, I will learn her as a master.
I will learn her weaknesses,
her strengths,
her parts,
her accessories,
her tits and her pussy.
I will ever guard her against
the ravages of weather and damage.
I will keep my wife clean and ready,
even as I am clean and ready.
We will become part of each other.
We will.

Before Myself I swear this creed.
My wife and myself are the defenders of my Family.
We are the masters of our lives.
We are the saviors of my life.
So be it, until there is no life,
but Peace.
Comments: 9 shades or color me grey.

Friday, April 28th, 2006

Subject:Invitation
Time:7:09 pm.
anyone who cares...i give you an open invitaion to my blog at myspace.com

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=554633&blogID=115143997&indicate=1


i have a retarded and stalker EX of my bb's trying to fuck with me.  so i decided to kill her with sympathy and kindness..tell me what you think

and seriously the stories i tell are true... 
Comments: color me grey.

Wednesday, April 26th, 2006

Time:2:53 pm.

BURNING, NOW I BRING YOU HELL

LEAVE ME TONIGHT
LET THE WARNING SAID, LEAVE A SHUDDER UPON YOU
RUNNING FROM ALL THAT YOU'VE FEARED IN YOUR LIFE
SOUL OF THE NIGHT
WILL A SON MISLEAD, PAINT A HORROR UPON YOU
MARKING THE MOMENT, DISPLAYING IN MY
GHOST OF A LIFE
THAT I CAN'T CONDONE THE WAY YOU LEFT ME
OUT IN THE OPEN, TO LEAVE ME TO DIE
SO HOW CAN I
FORGET THE WAY YOU LED ME THROUGH THE PATH INTO HEAVEN,
TO LEAVE ME BEHIND


NOW I CAN'T STAY BEHIND
SAVE ME, FROM WREAKING MY VENGEANCE UPON YOU
TOO CHIILING, MORE THAN I CAN TELL
BURNING, NOW I BRING YOU HELL

FREE ME TONIGHT
LEST THE ANIMAL, CAGED, BE A TERROR UPON YOU
CAUGHT IN THE MOMENT, ENGAGING IN MY
BLOODLUST TONIGHT
NOW I CAN'T CONTROL MY VENOM'S FLOW
GET BACK FROM ME DEMON, OR BE EXORCISED



ALL MY EMOTION AND ALL MY INTEGRITY
ALL THAT YOU'VE TAKEN FROM ME

Comments: color me grey.

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